I found this on Facebook. And I actually almost teared up just reading this… Well, not almost. I totally did. It is so beautifully written, I am seriously speechless… Nothing is more painful than heartbreak. I hope they both find their peace. xx
“Five days ago you mentioned a craving for pancakes. We didn’t have milk, so we made something else. Plans changed.
While you were out, I got milk so I could surprise you the next morning. We woke up, and instead of making pancakes, we broke up. Plans changed.
We live together, so we have been talking about this for the past week. And I’m just lost. We were so happy. You still say you love me, but you have a feeling. I’m trying to understand, but I can’t. We are going back and forth this week between arguing and living like nothing changed. I yelled at you for the first time yesterday. I had nothing nice to say and I said it anyway, and at the time it made me feel a little better. But while the volume was honest, the words were just a sudden yelp from feeling the world fall out from beneath me.
An hour later we ate sushi and kissed. You went for drinks with a friend, and I went to sleep in the spare room. At 4AM you asked me to come to bed, and I felt the world again.
You told me early on about having commitment issues. We saw those manifest 7 months ago, and we worked on it until things were okay again. I don’t understand why that’s not an option now. I walked with you to the train today and you held my hand while suggesting places I could move out to.
On the train, I saw you look at me the way that I still look at you. I want to help you follow that feeling.
While packing today, I found a paper we were writing ideas together on while sitting at our bar. You wrote “What feels like HOME?”
You do, babe.
You feel like home.
I know you’re craving certain things. I want to find them with you.
A good story had a beginning, a middle, and an end. But that’s just logistics. This doesn’t have to be the end. Not yet. I just need you to remember this is worth fighting for.”
Check out the awesome Facebook page where I snagged this from here. The Stranger’s Project is an on-going collection of more than 10,000 handwritten journal entries. The catch? The entries are totally anonymous and are written on the spot by complete strangers. This amazing project was started by Brandon Doman in 2009, you can read more about it here.
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