I hope you will forgive me.
I know death is not something I can control… I know it’s against everything that You have said. I know that because I was raised that way. “People who kill themselves go to Hell.”
I know, God, I know.
And I’m sorry for I have no choice.
It hurts. It all hurts so much. I don’t want it to hurt anymore…
I know it’s stupid of me to hope I get in Heaven.
I’m sorry, God…